Imagine the whole world around you.. dark and ugly.. nothing really special. Everything just turned into normal and you just can not appreciate what you have. Everything you do is out of habit. Your life is getting boring, you see the same people every day, you do the same things all the time, got sick of the music you're listening to, no mood to do anything.
Well that's not the mood I am in! There's always something special I see and live with! I gotta tell you that it's not always like this.
It's rather this mixed feeling when I feel sad, but at the same time happy. In love, but don’t know with whom. Excited, but have no idea why. Tired, but can’t keep my eyes closed. I like everything, but still dislike everything at the same time. Want to talk alot, but there’s no word coming out of my mouth. Miss everyone, but still don’t want to see anyone. Wish for things that could never happen. Ready, but not prepared. Curious, but don’t wanna know anything. Wanted, but feeling unwanted (or the other way around). Sure, but still confused. Thinking, not having anything in mind. Dead, but still living.